Everlasting Stories: Maret 2013

'Friend'

Rabu, Maret 13, 2013 | Label: confession, My Memorable Things, random mind

Hey Ha!

It's been a month ya, not to share any story in here.. ^^

Today I can't wait to write what had happened in my life, a very -perhaps- important moment for me..

and it is... the meaningful boy, remember? the one who I ever admired, the one who ever stay in my mind.. :)

Yup, today we'd just talked privately.. ehem.. in a silent room, in our lovely campus library.. I am a bit afraid actually since it's kinda weird to stay just with a man in a room.. a bit awkward.. heu

Somehow, I just thought that he might say another thing that is different with my interpretation but it happened.. I know that someday he might make everything clear between us..

and it happened today..

I can see clearly through his expression that it was hard for him to say those 'privat' things to me.. but he finally said it..

He has think about it for 2 years, he felt that there's boundaries between us that make us feel awkwark whenever we meet.. thus, he decided to tell me this thing, that he want me to be his friend.. not more than that..

and I agree, cz I think it's the best for us.. it feels more comfortable to be a friend.. so that both of us can share our story without any burden.. without hard feelings..

I, personally, know that I just admired him, not more.. since it's been 2 years , I think the feeling is already gone.. though the special feeling already disappeared, but I admit that he's still admirable,, see, that once I admire a person, it will remains forever,, and it also happened to him..

but I never have a friend who has different gender with me.. not for sharing some privat things.. but I can tell everything to him,, thus, I am a bit confused.. It's the first time and I am afraid that it might not success..

I wanna give something to him today, but it will be strange to give something to a person who just said that he wants to be a friend only.. then finally I decided to give the thing to Jun Gyu's Mom,, hiks ,, I am pathethic .. :'(

Deep in my heart, I hope we can be a close friend.. but I know it might be difficult.. he's different.. perhaps we find some similarities between us.. but I know, I can't intensively deal with him.. it's kinda dangerous.. hehe

but I just wanna let it flow, what will happen tomorrow, I just wanna enjoy it.. :)

Sayonara, Meaningful boy.. I hope we'll be a good friend.. ^^

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It's been a long time..

Sabtu, Maret 02, 2013 | Label: confession

seseorang pernah bertanya kenapa aku jarang menulis tentangnya lagi..
kenapa ya? aku biasanya tipe yang menulis sesuatu yang aku sukai.. sesuatu yang memberikan efek menyenangkan karna tulisan buruk hanya akan memperburuk suasana hatiku..
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bisa jadi karna dia sudah ngga menarik perhatianku lagi..
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saat ini aku hanya menulis untuk diriku..
dan aku pikir berkat itu aku jadi sadar..
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juga memberikan contoh yang amat jelas bahwa mereka ngga berharga untuk dipertahankan..

jadi kenapa aku jarang nulis lagi?
ya seharusnya setelah membaca tulisan ini kamu tau jawabannya kan? :p