Haraaa Haraaa,, finally I decided to write again in here!!
Yeah I'm back~~ >o<
To be honest, I've created account in other socmeds.. and..............
I FORGOT which email and what password that I used there!!
I've tried to remember it, but it was useless.. I got no idea.. Gosh!
So, with a heavy heart and no choice, I am BACK... yaay~~~
Gonna write many unimportant yet unforgettable things in my life..
Please anticipate it~ ^0^
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Hey Ha!
It's been a month ya, not to share any story in here.. ^^
Today I can't wait to write what had happened in my life, a very -perhaps- important moment for me..
and it is... the meaningful boy, remember? the one who I ever admired, the one who ever stay in my mind.. :)
Yup, today we'd just talked privately.. ehem.. in a silent room, in our lovely campus library.. I am a bit afraid actually since it's kinda weird to stay just with a man in a room.. a bit awkward.. heu
Somehow, I just thought that he might say another thing that is different with my interpretation but it happened.. I know that someday he might make everything clear between us..
and it happened today..
I can see clearly through his expression that it was hard for him to say those 'privat' things to me.. but he finally said it..
He has think about it for 2 years, he felt that there's boundaries between us that make us feel awkwark whenever we meet.. thus, he decided to tell me this thing, that he want me to be his friend.. not more than that..
and I agree, cz I think it's the best for us.. it feels more comfortable to be a friend.. so that both of us can share our story without any burden.. without hard feelings..
I, personally, know that I just admired him, not more.. since it's been 2 years , I think the feeling is already gone.. though the special feeling already disappeared, but I admit that he's still admirable,, see, that once I admire a person, it will remains forever,, and it also happened to him..
but I never have a friend who has different gender with me.. not for sharing some privat things.. but I can tell everything to him,, thus, I am a bit confused.. It's the first time and I am afraid that it might not success..
I wanna give something to him today, but it will be strange to give something to a person who just said that he wants to be a friend only.. then finally I decided to give the thing to Jun Gyu's Mom,, hiks ,, I am pathethic .. :'(
Deep in my heart, I hope we can be a close friend.. but I know it might be difficult.. he's different.. perhaps we find some similarities between us.. but I know, I can't intensively deal with him.. it's kinda dangerous.. hehe
but I just wanna let it flow, what will happen tomorrow, I just wanna enjoy it.. :)
Sayonara, Meaningful boy.. I hope we'll be a good friend.. ^^
It's been a long time..
seseorang pernah bertanya kenapa aku jarang menulis tentangnya lagi..
kenapa ya? aku biasanya tipe yang menulis sesuatu yang aku sukai.. sesuatu yang memberikan efek menyenangkan karna tulisan buruk hanya akan memperburuk suasana hatiku..
jadi kenapa ga nulis lagi tentang orang itu?
mungkin orang itu sudah tidak seberharga dulu..
bisa jadi karna mengingatnya hanya memberikan kenangan buruk..
bisa jadi karna dia sudah ngga menarik perhatianku lagi..
banyak kemungkinan sih..
aku juga ngga akan menulis tentang orang yang bagiku hanya biasa saja..
aku paling benci menulis hanya untuk menyenangkan perasaan orang yang ngga pantas untuk dibuat senang..
saat ini aku hanya menulis untuk diriku..
dan aku pikir berkat itu aku jadi sadar..
bahwa orang yang pintar berkata manis itu sesungguhnya hanya penipu ulung..
bahwa seseorang yang hanya menginginkanmu ketika dia butuh saja itu benar2 ada di dunia ini..
bahwa ada orang yang ngga pernah puas bahkan menghargai semua usahamu pun dia mungkin gak kepikiran..
ternyata orang seperti itu benar2 ada..
aku juga ngga ambil pusing lagi sih.. toh ini hidup2 gue, jadi ya udah buanglah semua hal negatif, cuma jadi racun hidup ajah,,
aku berterima kasih pada orang yang sukses menggoreskan luka yang mungkin susah buat hilang..
mereka memberikan contoh yang jelas seperti apa itu keburukan yang ga boleh aku ikuti..
juga memberikan contoh yang amat jelas bahwa mereka ngga berharga untuk dipertahankan..
jadi kenapa aku jarang nulis lagi?
ya seharusnya setelah membaca tulisan ini kamu tau jawabannya kan? :p
L.O.S.T
Дрэнна табе .. Я так сумна, што Вы настолькі слабыя .. Я хачу пакінуць вас, таму, магчыма, вы будзеце мець лепшае жыццё без мяне .. Можа быць, вы можаце вырашыць ваш выбар лягчэй без мяне быць побач з вамі .. Можа быць, вы будзеце шчаслівыя з гэтым чалавекам .. Я не хачу быць перашкодай для адносін .. гэта досыць .. Я стаміўся .. Я не магу ўзяць гэта больш .. да пабачэння.
I don't hate you anymore
Yesterday, when I was in Liqo, my Murobbi shared about 'Bandul' story..
Actually the story is very simple, "Life is better in balance, don't hate something too much and even don't love something too much" because that 'too much' is never been good.. ( I'm sorry Yeollie, I love you too much~~ >.<)
I know it actually, but the way my Murobbi told us is-you know- in a not-teaching-way.. (I don't know the term.. hehe )
It makes me realize.. that I was bad.. I don't have any rights to hate people.. >.<
Then, I decide to start everything from the beginning, to reset my feeling for everything, even to delete all 'hatred virus' in my head..
It might be difficult, but I am good in adapting my self to a new condition, even the bad one..
Life is so complicated, I don't know why Allah gave me this kind of complicated situation.. but I know for sure, everything happens for a reason.. I believe in Allah, I just have to try my best.. :)
P.s: since I'm trying not to hate you anymore, I just wanna say, I hate people not for a shallow reason like what you always think.. it's more than that.. I thought you're good in analyzing something but I found it wrong.. I am sorry for treating you bad,, I don't want to hurt you actually..
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