It's been 4 years since the first time I stepped my foot in Jakarta..
Time flies, I even missed many things..my time, my targets, my dreams..
And now, I almost see the final round of my college life..
Soon, I'll be graduated.. I just have 3 months more to stay here and I haven't decided yet which path that I will choose.. It's hard, when you deal with something relates to future, it looks scary.. because it is full of uncertainty..
I feel like go back to the time when I was senior high school, at that time, I also feel like so much confuse with my future.. I was struggling to find the right way to be what I wanna be.. I thought I could reach my dream to learn Japanese as much as I want.. to be one of UNPAD students,, to be part of Japanese Literature major,.. but Allah guide me to another path.. it's here, in SSE.. and soon I will be an English teacher.. but I feel like I am not sure with it.. like half of me don't really wanna be English teacher..
I feel like in the middle of nowhere, no sign, no light..
I don't know how to decide..
but If I just let the time gone further, I will be left behind..
Sometimes I miss my self in the past, sometimes I miss my time when I was young and full of freedom..
and I still remember that I promise I will be an adult who can keep my childish side, who will never forget how to have fun.. but when things get out of control, it's hard to have fun..
It seems hard lately, but I know I'll be fine.. I just want to throw away this uncomfortable feelings and catch more positive minds.. it's journey, sometimes we fall, sometimes we raise,, but the important thing is not to give up..
It's endless journey, I hope everything's going to be okay.. ^^
