It was something really-almost-never happened in my working
life. I ‘exploded’ in classroom.. -____-
I don’t know why but my students were very moody today and
they made me crazy [I almost want to hang them and make them become ‘teru-teru
bozu’ outside]
Ms. Ira said ‘Maybe because of the rain’, yuph, it was
raining cats and dogs yesterday, so that only half of students came, some of
them came in a-very-wet condition.
I know that students especially in that age [second graders
and third graders] are really self-centered. Sometimes they don’t want to play
with other student who they think not in their level.
That’s why when a half of absent student who are the BFF of
some who came were not in classroom, students who came didn’t want to cooperate
with others. I give a real example;
I want them to play games in pairs, the boys don’t have any
problems with it. However, the girls don’t want to join because one of them
doesn’t want to be in the same team with Tasya [I know she is a bit rude].
So, I change the partner, but Alya doesn’t want to be with
Kaila, because they don’t friends anymore [What the heck with it? Children sometimes
decided to not be friends in inappropriate situation!]
So that I am a bit angry, I left the girls. While listening
section, Sakha wanted me to pause after one number while the others already
finished. Of course I could not just pay attention to Sakha while the others
nag to me to check their works. Sakha is a ‘loud yet spoilt’ student who want
every his requests fulfilled by everyone and he ‘pundung’. He didn’t want to do
the exercises and he didn’t want to talk to me. Errrrrrrrrrrrghr…
-_______-
In the middle of lesson, Nevan suddenly crying because he
could not see his aunt outside [of course it was raining and his aunt probably
was waiting somewhere near GIS. I have told Nevan that everything will be okay
and his aunt will be back to pick him, but he was so stubborn and he continued
crying and didn’t want to do the exercise until he see his aunt [what a really
spoiled child, gosh!!!] and I could not just focus to him so I asked Ms. Ira to
help me. After that, Figo [I think he needs to shut his mouth] said like this
to me, ‘Gimana sih Miss, Nevan nangis, Sakha pundung, Cewe2 gak mau main games,
bla, bla,bla’. I just send my devil glare and ‘kunyeng2’ his head ala Sinchan’s
Mom.
Sometimes I hate to be so kind to my students, but I don’t
want to be a teacher who is mean or strict or whatever. I just want to be
someone that they can share and believed. I just want them to feel safe near
me.
My Boss have told me that I’ve become the popular GEC teacher
in GIS kindergarten and GIS elementary. He told me that all students love me. I
was happy but sometimes it needs extra-patience to keep being a very kind
teacher. Authority also becomes a problem. When you become a school teacher,
you have many authorities even to give punishment to your students while if you
become course teacher, you can’t do that. Sometimes I hate being a course
teacher. Everything settled and no fun [in term of teaching rules] but I know
that what I have to do is trying to deal with it. Allah gave this job to me
because He knows that I can handle it no matter how hard it is.
I believe there is rainbow after the rain, so I hope next
teaching will be a good moment. J
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