Cheer up~

I was struggling to get over the loneliness last week, yeah, it's still a bit lonely but it's not as worst as last week,
I think I've friend with the silence in this boarding house.. hehe

Guess what? Something good always happened in a bad condition, I admit that being alone made me lonely and since I didn't have many close friends it's kinda hard to express my feelings, some people might not understand it..

But last week I've realized a lot of things, like if we open up our mind, try to contact old friends and keep in touch with new circle, it made me feel like I am not alone.. yeah, at least lot of people care, they accept me, the one who ever made them as 'options' in the past..

I even found a sister that really understand how I felt on those "dark days".. it's rare and unexpected since we just a housemate before but last Thursday, like a water, it's overflowing, like I didn't know why I could easily tell everything to her, like finding a-really-close sister to talk to..
I know that sometimes I am picky, in choosing a close friend, because I can't really open up to people about my privacy.
But I am gradually changed..

I am afraid of a goodbye because I don't want to lose those precious people of mine, but I realize that they will always be there, if they truly love me, distance is not a matter..

Recently, I learn to reply all the text faster, hang out with math friends from SSE, who think differently about me (they previously thought me as a shy and too kind girl, they didn't know that I can be crazy too.. haha) and I also planting positive mind every day..

I started to be grateful of what I have, I never know before that a lot of people want to be close with me, they care about my problems, I never know that I could be this outgoing, I never know that I could be this strong over the loneliness..
I was blind before, I am too focus on one thing.. and now I could see everything clearly..

This is me now, I am no longer 'I am' yesterday.. now I wanna meet new friends, getting close with many people, learn to care, learn to give little things that make them happy, I want to be at least a reason of someone's smile.. I want to be a better person.. and I know that the best is yet to come..
I will never give up on this overwhelming condition, and I know I can pass it well, because only with positive mind I will get over it..
Hope tomorrow will be better.. ^^ Ganbatte ne! Assaaa~